Cramps...

I usually do not discuss about it. I am pretty discreet about it. I have no idea why but I have always been like that. I only mention it if asked. Now I have decided to blog about it after what occurred yesterday. Hmmm.. Well what is it? Cramps…u know THE monthly cramps!?!
As many unfortunate women I’m cursed with the cramps every month! Fortunately I can still manage to attend to my daily routines without issues. Occasionally I do experience excruciating ones but thankfully it has been eluding me till last Saturday!
Basically I am not the type who visits doctors for cramps. Actually I didn’t even know that you can visit a doctor for a cramp?!I mean wasn’t that a norm for every female? I felt embarrased about it. That’s what I thought till I met many others who go through serious cramps.
Well back to my story. I insisted that I go out since it was just like any other day. A part of me wanted to stay back but I still went on. Jus after passing by one station I felt a sudden urge to go back home. My intuition told me to get out of the train immediately! I quickly dashed out and board the opposite train. I felt an unexpected dizziness, and nauseated. Everything else looked blurrish, I could not hear anything around me. I kept telling myself not faint in the train! Next thing I know, I have bypassed my station! I have absolutely no recollection of what went on during that travel!
All I wanted to do was take a seat. I just could not stand anymore. I was in intense pain and giddy. I rang up my sis to pick me up from my station. This means I still have to board the train again. I was perspiring like a pig! After sitting for about a good 10min,i forcefully walked to the train and repeatedly told myself not to faint! It was a good thing I had the shades on but I am pretty sure I looked absolutely pale!
Unfortunately, I was still very much in agony! Urgh!!! I sat at my station and waitied for my sis while cringing in pain. All I wanted was to lie down and hold on to someone. This of course was not happening! I was surrounded by people but I guess they were juts busy in their own world to notice someone in pain! I kept hoping that a mrt staff would pass by and rescue me but to no avail! Apart of me wanted to ask people for help but the egoistic side of me resisted. In the end, the egoistic won!
My poor sis rushed down to pick me up but left her hand phone at home in a hurry! There I was in pain, ringing my sis continuously and wondering if something bad has occurred to her!!!! ( coz my mum informed that she left quite some time back)This resisted me to take a cab back. The again, i felt tooo weak to even walk.
After what seemed ages, I slowly stood up and made my way home. The pain was very much there but I was not feeling nauseated anymore. Unable to find me, my sis went back home, took her phone and was on the way again when I told to go back home! I knew I was fine. Thank god, I did not faint and made a scene. I always knew I have strong will power. I kept telling myself that it will be over soon. It did. (after a long time!)
Lesson learnt:
I should start reaching out to people. I mean I should go out of my way when I suspect it. I just wanted someone to ask me how I felt and say something soothing. I felt so unwanted as if no one cared!
I have just become like any other typical Singaporean –“mind my own business attitude”! I should start behaving the way I want others to be to me!